Ugggh I'm feeling so fat right now. I didn't eat like 1,000 calories or anything but I definitely ate more than I had to.
Okay so, I told them that I'm a vegetarian, right? So they didn't make me eat any of the meat, but they had a whole bunch of other things. Like cupcakes and shit. My friend ate one and asked me if I wanted to eat one, and I was like "Noooo way." She looks at me weird and says, "What, are you anorexic or something?" I almost threw up. Why would she automatically say that unless she suspected it? Ugh...I do not want to get found out. So, to prove her wrong, I grabbed one and ate it. It was so disgusting...it was so sweet and thick, I almost choked on it. A couple of minutes later, when I was in the restroom, I tried to throw it up but I couldn't. There were so many people around, I was so paranoid they would hear the noises and then my friend would only get more suspicious. As soon as I left the bathroon, she shoved another cupcake into my hands. Are you serious?! Is she TRYING to make me fat?! I just said "Thanks!" and licked a little sickening icing off the top, then as soon as she turned her back, I threw it into the bushes. Whew.
Thankfully, once I ate a couple of table spoons of potato salad, she was assuaged. I just said that I was going out to dinner with my family later and didn't want to ruin it, and she didn't bother me any more. Whew!
Tomorrow, after school, I'm going to have to hit the gym to work of that cupcake and the potato salad. :\
Ugh, hiding eating disorders are so dificult! I feel your pain. Good call, telling her you were going out later though, that's really quite brilliant, and hey-- remember paranoia sometimes gets the best of us. Stand your ground. People will say anything to get you to eat. I've also found cake etc to be dificult to eat sometimes. Once you stop eating so much sugar the sweetness of certain foods truly is intoxicating. It's okay to say you don't like sweets. I make a joke out of it often.
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