BINGE!

Ugh. I fucked up, again.
Today was my friends birthday, and what did she bring to school? Pizza. Of course.
I used to LOVE pizza. I would eat it whenever I was sad, or really happy, or whenever something good was happening. I ate it when my parents got divorced to comfort myself...that's how I ended up so fat.
Anyways, so now whenever I see it I just have all of these good feelings of happiness and comfort. And I was really stressed out today because of my ex and his fat girl friend, who I probably look like right now because I'm SUCH A FAILURE.
I ate SIX PIECES OF PIZZA. SIX!!!
Shit, I may as well have just commited suicide, because that's whats gonna happen if I keep putting away food like this. I don't know what happened...every body else was eating pizza, and the smells and the warmth was getting to me and I was so cold, and the pizza was sooo warm. I felt empty, and I needed to fill that up. What I didn't realize is that once the pizza was gone, I was going to feel like total shit again, except even WORSE.
The first slice went down, and I was so happy I wanted to dance, and then the second dissapeared, and the third, and the fourth, and the fifth, and the sixth. By that time, I was sure everybody was staring at me, and I felt terrible. (Secretly, I was sort of smug because they don't know that I'm EDNOS, they just think I have a super fast metabolism. Theyre prob all jealous.)
Anyways, I'm going to go wallow in self pity. Maybs tomorrow will be better and I'll be able to make up for my horrible binge...I think I'll have to go to the gym to make up for this one....erch. Its what my fat-ass deserves, anyways.

Dumb fat bitch.

Well, today was okay, fasting-wise. Other than that, though, my life is all fucked up. I just found out that my ex-boyfriend is dating some girl who is one of the fattest girls at the school. SERIOUSLY? I starved my ass off to be thin, and he dumps me for some heifer with no self control? Are you fucking kidding me? And that heifer came up to me in the hallway and accused me of flirting with her boyfriend. I was like, yeah, like I would ever flirt with a chubby chaser. Whatever, fat ass, go eat a cake or something.
I didn't actually say that but I thought it. lol. I'm surprised that her mouth was unoccupied long enough to get more than three words out. (Ew, that sounds so sexual. But yeah, she's a slut, too.)
Whatever. That guy had no idea what he had. I hope he gets smothered between his whores fat rolls.